I've to move on.

I'm making resolutions soon, for the first time in my life, because I know I'm gonna keep them, I'm gonna be a better person this year.

I'm gonna appreciate everyone I love and care for because nothing's definite, things do change.

Living in the past hurts, and leaving the past behind is hard.

But hardship is what defines a character.

On the top of my resolution list will be basketball of course.

But the passion doesn't stay in all of us and it's not gonna be easy.

There will be a way, I hope.

Cny has been tough somehow because of how the loneliness sets in when my brother isn't around, when I'm left alone with my own thoughts which brings me back to one year ago. But the familiar faces, the cliche blessings and remarks of 'Whoa so big already!' is forever so welcoming. I may not be close to any one of them I meet anymore, but nevertheless these yearly gatherings are really heartwarming.

Yes I miss you, yes there may be a part of me that still wants you back, but I've learnt that it'll never happen and it's final, that you're gone forever.